It's so nice.

Wow, it's crazy, looking back and thinking about how much I felt like I was struggling just a few weeks ago. And now, he's home, and it's the best feeling in the world. I am picking myself back up again, and I am recooperating. It's just nice.
Hubby has been home for a little while now, and the best part is knowing that he is actually going to be home for quite some time, and not leaving after just coming home like how's it been the past six months. And he comes home, and everything is just right. My best friend is back. We watch movies, play games, hang out with people, go shopping, I'm cooking again, he's playing with our son, and I can do things, or just sit and veg, whatever I want. It fills me up with a happiness I haven't felt in a very long time. And knowing that it's going to last for awhile makes it even better.
Of course, I am nowhere near 100%. We aren't sleeping currently because of the little man adjusting to having Daddy home. And then, we stay up so late just talking or spending time together, and are up at 6 AM with the little guy. I don't mind it though. He's been in such a great mood since Daddy has been home too. I think part of it has to do with feeding off our emotions, which is interesting, and the other is just having his world back together again. It's so endearing. His first word is officially "Mama." I am so proud of him. He is babbling, and doing an army pull crawl thing, and just lights up my life. I wish I had more energy right now to give him, but probably in about another week I'll be up to speed again.
Hubby had duty today so I made him and all the guys food and bought chips and drinks since their galley is closed. It was really nice to be able to go see him, and get a good tour of the boat without a ton of guys running everywhere. And of course, there's nothing like having a bunch of men thank you and really appreciate you and love you because you brought them food, LOL. Hubby was like "Great...now everyone loves you." Secretly though, he adores me for the things I do. And of course, the little man got his fill of testosterone and a new place to check out. He loved it, he was talking up a storm to everyone in crews mess.
Of course though, while most everything is honky dory, I still feel like something is missing. Not in my husband or son, just in the fact that I need to find something to do for myself. Not like shopping, or checking out new places, but something for me. I have been tinkering with the idea of going back to school and just doing an online college. I can't decide what I want to major in though. I am going back and forth on psychology, information technology, or English. And if I just finish my two year degree, I can't get financial aid for a general two year degree. Which sucks. So I'm in a rough spot. I haven't really told the husband about it yet either since we've been talking about so many other things. Life just goes so fast when he's home, and then he's gone and the world seriously stops turning until he gets back. It gets a little annoying. :) But I know he will support whatever I decide, and I know he thinks it's great whenever I'm in school because I am happier when I am doing things for myself. I just don't understand how other mom's do it, because I feel like all my time and energy is eaten up by my two guys.
I guess I just need to sleep on it. Which, sleeping sounds like a fantastic idea...right..about...now.