So just when you think you've hit the bottom...

Like I said, just when you think you've hit the bottom, a hand reaches out, and stops you from falling anymore. You're lifted up, just a little bit, and you feel like you can climb the rest of the way out. People reach out to you, and it just kind of touches your heart. And family finally has a light click on, and they start to sincerely listen. And you get a few lines from your husband that give you the strength to keep going for a little while longer-

I can't tell you how proud I am of you for doing this, It just this deep down feeling of thats my wife and I bet no one else wife could come close to doing what you do without help. You are the best honey, the most wonderful mother and beautiful wife anyone could ask for.

What he doesn't know though, is that there are a bunch of other wives and mothers who do this every single day. Actually, he probably does know that and is just trying to make me feel better. :) It worked. I hope someday I can be as strong as these other women though. I really do admire them because it takes sooo much out of you.
Today is a brighter day though. I am trying to find activities to involve myself in, and hopefully this weekend I will get to make some new friends, and become better acquainted with others. I finally got an answer from my husband about what we are going to do in the upcoming years, and even though it was a, we'll have to talk about this, he did let me know what he thought and how he felt about staying navy. Which, is pretty much exactly how I feel, like it's not worth all the grief, but he is trying to think of the bigger picture and wants to take care of his family rather than just live bare minimum. I suppose I'm being selfish too when I tell him to just get out and I don't care what happens. This isn't about me, and he needs me to support him. I try to, most days, but when the bad days are here, they come with a vengeance.
So, starting today, I am going to put more effort into doing what it is that I need to do to stay strong and survive this. To not let the bad days over run my whole life, and to support him, in whatever way he needs me to, just like he does for me. I love that man :)